2025 04 08
Time is running out. We’re entering a new world. Time Theater. Mattoon, Illinois. April, 2024. © Clayton Hauck
It’s interesting, when you take a mental step back, far back, and consider how we got to where we are today.
Movie studios are being replaced by individual youtubers; magazines are being replaced by individual Substacks; comics are being animated through automation. There is no shortage of examples to indicate how vastly different the landscape of necessary support structures are today, but the one constant is communication. People are seeking authenticity and placing it above all other factors largely because it’s now possible, for the first time ever, to communicate grand ideas — through video, photography, animation, words, all forms — without the need of vast and complicated structures which previously served as a means of control. If the system did not like what you were saying or doing, you had almost no recourse in our previous era. You had to play ball; say the right thing; bribe the right guy; put up with the unsuitable boss.
The downside to the removal of the guardrails, of course, is that we have to deal with chaos. Everyone is right about everything all of the time, which of course means half the population is always wrong. An enemy of the state! What we’ve gained in truth, we’ve given up in caution and stability.
I’m spending far too much time wondering how to make money in today’s wintry economic climate. While the creative community is shrinking in capacity, the supply of creatives is at an all-time high and will continue to grow thanks to the ease and speed of creation now possible. I refuse to become another loud mouth in a sea of attention seekers, which seems to be the obvious path to financial success in these current times.
Trump is now guiding our country because he was accessible, entertaining, and real. Tariffs are now our reality because some guy wrote a book which said all the things he wanted to hear, while using made up information to back it up. The truth doesn’t matter, it’s the message that matters. Communication. Not only what you say but how and where you say it.
The government is not going to save us now, just as the system we’ve burned down to get to where we are, previously, was at its core interested in protecting itself.
If we want a future world that values facts, reason, stability, opportunity, openness, we’re going to have to build it ourselves. I know that there are a lot of us out there, living quietly and patiently, hoping our time will again come, but without effort, our new reality will be one ruled by few and governed through ruthless efficiency — the same tools which have rendered vast industries, and now entire government agencies, no longer relevant — in order to accomplish the desires of few.
Zuckerberg and Altman are building their underground bunkers for a reason, and they’re not going to invite us over for tea.
What I’m seeing now is people choosing sides. It’s human nature to want to win. None of us liberals thought Trump, the guy who tried to burn down the Capital when he didn’t get his way, had a real shot at winning back the White House, but we failed to understand human nature. Facts, niceties, vibes don’t matter when the wolf is at your door and he’s hungry. In a world where it’s every man for themselves, your only real shot is having an army, figuratively or literally, on your side.
This is why I’m writing every day. This is why I’m pushing through the hard times using the best skills I have. The only way out is through.
-Clayton
PS- this entire post came out of me because I was going to share an example of Ai being used to create a comic, which I thought was nice. 😅
2025 04 06
A downtown dog walk. Chicago, Illinois. January, 2025. © Clayton Hauck
I’m very much slacking on my weekly exploration goal. While I haven’t been hitting the streets nearly as much as I’d planned, I have been putting a lot of time towards personal work and development, so I’m not considering it a loss… it just hasn’t played out as I’d hoped. That said, I’m excited to get back out on the street and make some new work. I think the nicer weather will very much be a catalyst to make this happen.
-Clayton
2025 04 05
Central Camera, Chicago, Illinois. January, 2025. © Clayton Hauck
I spend way too much time lately thinking on ways to make money through photography. You’d think making photos in exchange for money would be the obvious answer, and it is, but it’s increasingly complicated. I think it’s never been easier to make a living as a photographer, with the crucial and complicated stipulation that it is also a constant grind. But because it’s easier than ever, the supply and demand marketplace is also way out of whack, and it’s increasingly challenging to make good money doing it.
-Clayton
2025 03 29
Bridal shop. Chicago, Illinois. January, 2025. © Clayton Hauck
Don’t tell anyone but I added that blurred out person using generative Ai. I snapped this image as I was driving by in my automobile and I kinda liked it… but it needed some mysterious human energy involved.
The recent release of GPT 4o or whatever it’s called has me moving up the expiration date for my job. If anyone is hiring a college dropout, please let me know!
-Clayton
2025 03 27
Old Main Street is New Main Street. Canton, Illinois. March, 2025. © Clayton Hauck
I did a presentation today for APA Chicago with the theme being personal work. One of the things I discussed was my Ill Wandering work. It’s not work that I’ve spent much time assessing myself yet, as I’ve been more focused on allowing things to play out a bit more organically without forcing anything and focusing too much on any specific theme. That said, it was very much worthwhile to take a step back and further assess the photos I do have.
I’ll share more in the coming months and hope to get back out a bit more regularly this year to expand the body into something more substantial.
-Clayton
2025 03 22
Armitage Avenue, in need of some new shops. Chicago, Illinois. February, 2025 © Clayton Hauck
Why I’m such a sucker for tiny shops like this one, I don’t fully understand. But this lil spot is so cute that I’ve been dreaming of putting a business inside of it for more years than I can remember. One day, perhaps.
-Clayton
2025 03 18
Doggie Day Care. Baltimore, Maryland. September, 2024. © Clayton Hauck
Apologies for the lack of content lately, I’ve been busy starting a new business.
-Clayton
2025 02 25
Eggs. Chicago, Illinois. January, 2025. © Clayton Hauck
This is not a political blog…
-Clayton
2025 02 24
Streator, Illinois. November, 2024. © Clayton Hauck
Lately, I’ve been pondering excessively about what to focus my energies towards. Fortunately, I think my self-imposed marching orders have more or less been made and I am now on a path, for the remainder of the year at least, to see where it takes me.
One deterrent to creating new work is the internal struggle towards judging the work you haven’t yet created! Will it be unique enough? Will it be original? Will it stand out in a world so saturated with content it’s quite impossible to even comprehend!? The quote below, while clearly written in a time prior to social media, Ai, and content factories, helped bring some sanity to my overworked brain:
"Even in literature and art, no man who bothers about originality will ever be original: whereas if you simply try to tell the truth (without caring twopence how often it has been told before) you will, nine times out of ten, become original without ever having noticed it."
-C.S. Lewis
-Clayton
2025 02 22
Woman in window. Chicago, Illinois. January, 2025. © Clayton Hauck
Watching the world go by.
-Clayton
2025 02 21
Another Christmas tree to toss into the landfill. Chicago, Illinois. January, 2025. © Clayton Hauck
2025 02 18
I’m doing a lot of thinking and researching into video lately as I re-shape my approach to photography back towards motion-first. As always, doing the work and putting in the reps are vastly more important than anything you will learn sitting on the couch, however, I must say I am a bit humbled by the sheer level of quality being displayed by some young youtube video creators these days. The quality of work being made by one person in a bedroom is now equal to what a team of specialists would be called in for not long ago. Time, of course, is still the required x-factor, but Ai will continue to put a dent into that part of the equation as well.
The video below by Gawx is both a fourteen-minute long ad for laptops and a beautiful video about art and creation. It is both infuriating and mesmerizing. It is both an example of what I should be focusing my own career towards and everything I hate about what I do. It’s complicated, impressive, and seemingly has broken my brain.
What I keep thinking about is my own career path.
Have you had your ad break today? Chicago, Illinois. January, 2025. © Clayton Hauck
I’m doing a lot of thinking and researching into video lately as I re-shape my approach to photography back towards motion-first. As always, doing the work and putting in the reps are vastly more important than anything you will learn sitting comfortably on the couch, however, I must say I am a bit humbled by the sheer level of quality being displayed by some young youtube video creators these days. The quality of work being made by one person in a bedroom is now equal to what a team of specialists would be called in for not long ago. Time, of course, is still the required x-factor, but Ai will continue to put a dent into that part of the equation as well.
The video below by Gawx is both a fourteen-minute long ad for laptops and a beautiful video about art and creation. It is both infuriating and mesmerizing. It is both an example of what I should be focusing my own career towards and everything I hate about what I do. It’s complicated, impressive, and seemingly has broken my brain.
What I keep thinking about is my own career path.
When I began in this business, all the of content was made by a few old men with large support structures (filled with both full-time staff and freelance help) doing most of the work. These men owned buildings and got wildly rich. The barriers to entry were as tall as skyscrapers. I witnessed and participated in the very tail end of this era, working as an editor/assistant/webmaster/casting aide/etc before putting in my resignation and going out on my own with a new digital camera in hand. It was clear this model was dying and I would myself become a part of what killed it.
The new era which shaped me was filled with a larger number of younger men and women doing more of the work ourselves and keeping far less overhead. Nobody owned buildings, budgets were more modest but still robust, and freelancers were used anytime more help was needed on larger productions. Realistically, this era ended with Covid and we are now firmly in a new era, which people like myself are still a bit behind in understanding.
The current era is filled with millions of people, of all ages, all over the world motivated to make good work and fueled by a boom in affordable tools to do so. Cameras and lighting were once a barrier to entry but are now more of a bump in the road. Anything you want to make can be done with time and some youtube tutorials. It’s both amazing and terrifying, as the structures that were once in place to regulate prices and standards have crumbled like a sand castle at high tide. Making a living in this era will largely be tied to how large and dedicated your personal audience is and far less by how good you are at lighting or camera operating (this stuff helps but without an audience, you’re just one of thousands of people capable of doing it). To get an audience, you need a voice. A unique angle. Consistency. You need to be interesting and authentic. Say wild things, be provocative. Grab them by the pussy and be put in charge of the nation.
I’m still digesting all of this myself and figuring out where I stand in this landscape. At the end of the day, I know making things is what brings me joy and makes me happy, gives me purpose. I could do it for thousands of dollars or I could do it for free and be just as happy (shoutout to my agent). This is my edge but it’s no longer all you need to make it all work. You need a voice. You need to communicate clearly and gain an audience. You need a … blog?
-Clayton
2025 02 06
I’ll admit it, my strategy for keeping sane during the early days of Trump’s second term has been rapidly deteriorating the last few days. Talk of tariffs on our allies and a takeover of Gaza had me doomscrolling and contemplating the need to find a new home more than I’d like to admit. Avoiding the coverage morphed into obsessing over it and my mood began to match.
Fortunately, amidst the doom scrolling, I was reminded by Senator Chris Murphy that this is precisly Trump’s plan: to distract and overwhelm while they sneak through the actual agenda. Then, today, this great video below popped into my feed. Ezra managed to calm my nerves and restore some sanity.
While this storm is far from over, it’s a valuable lesson that we should keep calm and carry on, as our friends across the pond (who surely will soon be threatened with tariffs or much worse) so like to say.
-Clayton
Caution: Falling Ice, Tariffs, Invasion, Nuclear War… Chicago, Illinois. January, 2025. © Clayton Hauck
I’ll admit it, my strategy for keeping sane during the early days of Trump’s second term has been rapidly deteriorating the last few days. Talk of tariffs on our allies and a takeover of Gaza had me doomscrolling and contemplating the need to find a new home more than I’d like to admit. Avoiding the coverage morphed into obsessing over it and my mood began to match.
Fortunately, amidst the doom scrolling, I was reminded by Senator Chris Murphy that this is precisly Trump’s plan: to distract and overwhelm while they sneak through the actual agenda. Then, today, this great video below popped into my feed. Ezra managed to calm my nerves and restore some sanity.
While this storm is far from over, it’s a valuable lesson that we should keep calm and carry on, as our friends across the pond (who surely will soon be threatened with tariffs or much worse) so like to say.
-Clayton
2025 02 03
It’s days like today I’m glad to not be working in retail… or global trade and finance, homebuilding, agriculture, automotive and aviation, crypto, anything dealing directly with Canada or Mexico, steel, arts nonprofits, USAid, Temu customer support… fortunately I am merely a humble photographic button pusher. Let me push my buttons for you?
-Clayton
PS: I should probably get back into shooting weddings.
Dresses for sale! Chicago, Illinois. January, 2025. © Clayton Hauck
It’s days like today I’m glad to not be working in retail… or global trade and finance, homebuilding, agriculture, automotive and aviation, crypto, anything dealing directly with Canada or Mexico, steel, arts nonprofits, the Democratic Party, USAid, Temu customer support… fortunately I am merely a humble photographic button pusher. Let me push my buttons for you?
-Clayton
PS: I should probably get back into shooting weddings.
2025 02 01
Have you had your (twenty-fourth) dopamine fix yet today?
Scott went hard on this one. Always worth reading but this one should be mandatory for everyone.
Today’s reading: Addiction Economy by future president Scott Galloway
-Clayton
Discarded dopamine value meal. Chicago, Illinois. December, 2024. © Clayton Hauck
Have you had your (twenty-fourth) dopamine fix yet today?
Scott went hard on this one. Always worth reading but this one should be mandatory for everyone.
Today’s reading: Addiction Economy by future president Scott Galloway
-Clayton
2025 01 30
I EXIST!
I used to joke that street tags could all be translated to “I exist!”
These days, we’re all steeet tagging digitally through the social apps we used, being forced to constantly remind the world we exist in a desperate plea to please the almighty algorithm and gain a sliver on traction in the attention economy we live in. It’s exhausting.
I walk this stretch often and watched the artist spend days painting this mural. Then the tags go up in an instance, crowding out any detail and nuance. Tagging is very much an art form fit for our time. Do we really exist if nobody sees your post on socials or name sprayed on a side street wall?
-Clayton
Wall filled with -a-r-t- tags. Chicago, Illinois. November, 2024. © Clayton Hauck
I EXIST!
I used to joke that street tags could all be translated to “I exist!”
These days, we’re all street tagging digitally through the social apps we use, being forced to constantly remind the world we exist in a desperate plea to please the almighty algorithm and gain a sliver on traction in the attention economy we live in. It’s exhausting.
I walk this stretch often and watched the artist spend days painting this mural. Then the tags go up in an instance, crowding out any detail and nuance. Tagging is very much an art form fit for our time. Do we really exist if nobody sees our post on social or name sprayed on a side street wall? Maybe not, after all.
Like, comment, subscribe, and come back tomorrow for more gem takes like this.
-Clayton
2025 01 22
Train over Red Hot Ranch. Chicago, Illinois. December, 2024. © Clayton Hauck
I haven’t had a glizzy in too long. I dislike that term, but I learned it by eating a dog at the Ranch. I haven’t had a dog in far too long. Maybe tonight is the night.
-Clayton
2025 01 19
Today, Sunday, is a day of relaxation. Tomorrow, Monday, begins the Trump Two Point Oh Era. Over the weekend, he launched a shitcoin which made him one of the world’s richest people in a matter of hours, while clearly plotting with TikTok to give him a quick PR win with the kids.
All of this is going on while millions of people like myself make a calculated effort to pay as little attention as possible to all of this because we know it’s inevitable, unstoppable, and will only drive us slowly insane if we do. Everything is wrong; everything is right. God is dead and the aliens are here. Stay sane out there. Here’s Tom with the weather.
-Clayton
Chicago, Illinois. January, 2025. © Clayton Hauck
Today, Sunday, is a day of relaxation. Tomorrow, Monday, begins the Trump Two Point Oh Era. Over the weekend, he launched a shitcoin which made him one of the world’s richest people in a matter of hours, while clearly plotting with TikTok to give him a quick PR win with the kids.
All of this is going on while millions of people like myself make a calculated effort to pay as little attention as possible to all of this because we know it’s inevitable, unstoppable, and will only drive us slowly insane if we do. Everything is wrong; everything is right. God is dead and the aliens are here. Stay sane out there. Here’s Tom with the weather.
-Clayton
2025 01 18
This morning, I decided on a whim to start posting images I made for my new creative resolution to the socials (and this here blog) as I make them, in an effort to motivate me to make stronger images. It’ll be a process, no doubt, but we’ll see where it takes us!
This image was from a short session on a dreary afternoon day in which I spent most of the time figuring out how the focus works on my new Ricoh GRiii (not to be confused with my old Ricoh GRiiix with the dirty sensor).
-Clayton
Man on ladder. Chicago, Illinois. January, 2025. © Clayton Hauck
This morning, I decided on a whim to start posting images I made for my new creative resolution to the socials (and this here blog) as I make them, in an effort to motivate me to make stronger images. It’ll be a process, no doubt, but we’ll see where it takes us!
This image was from a short session on a dreary afternoon day in which I spent most of the time figuring out how the focus works on my new Ricoh GRiii (not to be confused with my old Ricoh GRiiix with the dirty sensor).
-Clayton